Dec 2006

Too young to have an oldie's sickness, akala ko lang...
by missP on Tue Dec 05, 2006 10:54 am
"Sa sandaling nag tagpo ang kanilang mga mata ay bigla silang napangiti sa isa’t-isa. Napa tingin si Sabel sa kanyang kaibigang si Choleng. Ngumiti at kinawayan niya ito. Habang dahan-dahang lumapit si Choleng kay Sabel, ani pa niya. “Halika, mamasyal tayo sa may dalampasigan. Pumunta tayo doon sa may malaking bahay na bato at kumain ng pinalamig na mais na may gatas. Tiyak, bibigyan tayo ng mabait na babaeng nakatira doon ng pagkain at maiinom.” Umiling si Sabel. “Hindi maari Choleng. Uuwi na ako” ang sagot niya. “Kailangan makasakay ako sa huling biyahe ngayong araw na ito. Nag didilim na at ako ay hinihintay na nang aking Inay. Papagalitan ako ni Nanay kapag ako’y inabot ng dilim sa kalsada.”

Naiiyak akong kapag naaalala ko ang aking Lola. Siya ang nasirang Ina ng Tatay ko na nagkaroon ng Alzheimer's disease. Naaalala ko noon, sa tuwing nakikita niya ako, ngumingiti siya at sabay umaakap sa akin. Tinatanong niya ako kung kalian pa ako dumating at kung kaninong anak nga ba ako. Tapos, iiyak na siya. Naalala niya daw ako at ang aking mga kapatid. Nasaan na daw ang aking ama? Ganito ang aming eksena, sa tuwing kami’y nagkikita. Hindi baleng mga limang minuto lang ang nakalipas ng aming huling pag kakausap. Ang mabait na babaeng tinutukoy ni Aleng Choleng ay ang Tita ko. Ang kapatid na babae ng Tatay ko na naiwang nag alaga sa aking Lola.

Hindi kaya mamana ko ang Alzheimer Disease ng Lola Sabel ko?? Ano naman kaya ang gagawin ko? Wala akong anak na mag aasikaso sa akin. Sino ang mag aaruga sa akin pag umabot ako sa ganitong kalagayan?

Noong isang linggo ay nagpunta ako sa aking Doktor. Mayroon akong ini- reklamo sa aking kanang paa. Namamaga ang aking hinlalaki. Hindi naman ito naapakan or nabagsakan ng anumang bagay, kaya ako ay nag tataka kung ano ang dahilan ng pamamaga. Sa halip na mag paka loka ako sa kaiisip ng dahilan, madali akong nag punta sa aking Doktor. Ang sabi niya, Rheumatoid Arthritis daw ito.

"Major Types of Arthritis Rheumatoid arthritis generally starts to affect people between ages 20 and 50, and women three times as frequently as men. It may occur in children, particularly girls from 2 to 5 years of age. It is characterized by inflammation and pain in the hands -- especially the knuckles and second joints -- as well as in the arms, legs, and feet, and by general fatigue and sleeplessness. It can also cause systemic damage to other parts of the body, including the heart, lungs, eyes, nerves and muscles. The discomfort of rheumatoid arthritis can develop over weeks or months and tends to be most severe on awakening." - lifted from Emerging Worlds website

Sigurado na daw siya dahil hindi lang ito ang isang insidente. Nung isang taon, nanakit ang aking mga binti. Bago pa yan ay namaga ang aking hintuturo sa kanang kamay. Hindi man daw sabay-sabay na umaatake sa aking mga gaamay ang sakit, subalit ito ay nagiging paulit-ulit na. Kailangan ko daw mag undergo ako nang medication theraphy. Kailangan pag isipan ko daw ito ng maayos kung gusto ko itong gawin dahil may side effects ito. Kung may balak daw akong magka-anak ay hindi ko pwedeng ituloy ang theraphy na ito. Subalit, kung hindi naman daw ako mag undergo ng theraphy ngayon, kelan pa daw? Hihintayin ko pa ba daw na lumalala ang sakit na ito? Ang nirekomenda niya ay agapan na agad ng theraphy ang sakit ko. Pero ibig sabihin nito ay hindi ako pwedeng magka anak sa susunod na mga ilang taon. Tinanong ko siya kung gaano katagal ang theraphy na ito kailangan gawin? Isa, dalawa o di naman kaya tatlong taon? “Baka nga daw mas matagal pa dito. Pag isipan ko daw ng maigi. Pero, hindi naman daw pwedeng masyadong matagal na pag iisip. Kailangan daw kasi talaga sa lalong madaling panahon ay ma kontra na agad ang sakit ko.”

Takot ang nangibabaw sa akin. Hindi naman yata ako magkaka sakit ng Alazheimer's, pero ito naman ang inabot ko. “Rheumatoid Arthritis” daw sabi ng doctor. Kung sakaling itutuloy ko ang theraphy na ito, sa edad ko sa kasalukuyan ay malabo na ngang mag ka anak pa ako. Sabi kasi ng doctor, maaaring humigit pa sa tatlong taon ang tatakbuhin ng theraphy sa akin. To cleanse myself of all chemical in-take which can cause side effects on pregnancy can take even longer.

Ang hindi ko maintindihan ay kung bakit kailangan ng ganito ka drastic na paraan para mapagaling ang sakit ko. Marami naming may rheumatism jan, pero ni minsan ay hindi ako naka rinig na may ganitong case katulad ng sa akin. Sabi naman sa akin ng isa kong kasamahan sa trabaho, malamang dahil kadalasan sa nag kaka rheuma ay matatanda na at hindi na pwedeng magka anak. Sak kaso ko na bata pa at may rheuma na, mahirap nga dahil sa kahilingan kong mag ka anak pa.

Ewan ko. Sa kasalukuyan ay nalilito ako. Ang ginawa ko nalang ay sinubsob ko ang aking sarili sa pag ta trabaho. Hindi pa ako nag balik ulit sa aking doctor. Pero sa December 13 ay may appointment na naman ako sa kanya. Plano ko ay sasabihin kong, magbe-baby muna ako. Tapos sisimulan ko na agad ang theraphy. Hindi ko alam kung tama ang desisyon na ito. Pero, magbabaka sakali na rin ako. Katawan ko naman ito kaya desisyon ko ang masusunod.
Paltalk-in mo baby!
by missP on Fri Dec 08, 2006 6:20 pm
I have been trying to get into my website since 07:00 yesterday morning. I couldn’t get into the system. It keeps giving me the message: “Critical Error”. Talagang critical error, kasi nagtataka na siguro ang host ko dahil ang tagal tagal ko nang hindi na update ang blog ko. Well, those who came to lurk and visit, you know the reason. At least, that is if you scanned the last entry Wink. But, finally I am in now, hehehe.

Actually, it is not the only reason. I am also getting hooked on PALTALK. VoIP where one can chat and sing as well. Yes, karaoke on the web. It’s fun. I never liked chatting before. A friend asked me one day to help her download paltalk on her computer. She heard about it from a co-chatter. I tried it out, checked and scanned the rooms available there et v?ila: I GOT HOOKED!

Try it out folks. Sing your hearts out and meet a new community on the web. They’re “the singing chatters”.

PALTALK can be downloaded from here.
Th e ' L I T T L E ' t hi ng s .
by missP on Mon Dec 11, 2006 2:13 pm
Have you had days when everythings seems to be going the wrong way? That your plans turn out not quiet as expected or that your normal routine seems to be disrupted? Or perhaps there'S a special force working against it for a better end? Wink

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As you might know, the head of a company in the World Trade Towers survived 9/11 because his son started kindergarten.


Another fellow was alive because it was his turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her alarm clock didn't go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike because of an auto accident.

One of them missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take time to change.

One's car wouldn't start.

One went back to answer the telephone.

One had a child that dawdled and didn't get ready as soon as he should have.

One couldn't get a taxi.


The one that struck me was the man who put on a new pair of shoes that morning, took the various means to get to work but before he got there, he developed a blister on his foot. He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid. That is why he is alive today.

Now when I am:
stuck in traffic,
miss an elevator,
turn back to answer a ringing telephone...
all the little things that annoy me.
I think to myself,
this is exactly where
God wants me to be
at this very moment..


Next time your morning seems to be going wrong ,
the children are slow getting dressed,
you can't seem to find the car keys,
you hit every traffic light,
don't get mad or frustrated;
God is at work watching over you.

May God continue to bless you with all those annoying little things and may you remember their possible purpose.

Merry Christmas Everyone!
by missP on Sat Dec 16, 2006 4:36 pm
Christmas is just around the corner. The Christmas lights has been set up, as well as decorations like the very popular Santa climbing up somebody's window instead of stepping into the chimney's can be seen since the first week of December. The stores are now on the swing with their holiday sales. They even changed their opening hours till 22:00 instead of the usual 20:00. At least this is in effect in Hessen now. Christmas carols can be heard everywhere. The Christmas market in Frankfurt has been visited. And yes, thugs and thugs of Gl?hwein are currently consumed by the foreigners and Germans alike. But somehow it seems like it's not the middle of December. The weather has not been cooperating with the holiday air this year. No signs of snow yet and the temperature is like springtime. Not that I complain, but hey, something's gotta give. Question is what's missing in this years Christmas recipe?

music music Buh-bum.. buh-bum... music music

Santa baby, just slip a sable under the tree, for me
Been an awful good girl
Santa baby so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa baby, a '54 convertible too, light blue,
I'll wait up for you dear
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight

Think of all the fun I've missed,
Think of all the fellows that I haven't kissed
Next year I could be just as good
If you check off my Christmas list

Santa baby, I want a yacht and really that’s not a lot
Been an angel all year
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa honey, one little thing I really need, the deed
To a platinum mine,
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa cutie, and fill my stocking with a duplex and cheques,
Sign your x on the line
Santa cutie and hurry down the chimney tonight

Come and trim my Christmas tree,
With some decorations bought at Tiffany's
I really do believe in you,
Let's see if you believe in me

Santa baby, forgot to mention one little thing, a ring,
I don't mean on the phone,
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight

Hurry down the chimney tonight

music music music music



Well, actually, I am missing the Christmas "parols" (lanterns) in our country. I am missing those huge stars glimmering in different colors and some even with music playing hanging on the porch or at the balcony of houses in the Philippines. I miss the bragging about between friends and colleagues as to who is religiously going to the simbang gabi (evening mass) starting Dec. 16 until Christmas day. I long for puto bungbong, bibingka and the ube snacks that we have at dawn after the mass. I miss the hot chocolate that goes with all these treats as well for without it, the snack is not complete. Most of all, I miss just being with the whole family. Lazying around the house, going to the groceries together, choosing and planning the menu that will be prepared on Christmas eve etc. I miss the comings and goings of relatives and friends. The unending questions as to who will accompany who to the grocery, or who will order the lechon and the cake, or who has to go for last minute Christmas gift shopping and so on and so fort.

My Christmas here in Europe is quiet different....well, almost boring. Hubby and I work until the 22nd of the December. Every now and then, when I have a day off or two, i try to go to the city and do my christmas shopping. I try to go shopping with very close friends, too. Or plan some events together with them. But of course, this is not the same and can never replace the “family thing” You see, the most important ingredient for a complete and happy Christmas for me is spending it with family and very close relatives. Ok, I admit, a few days before Christmas and until Christmas day it self, I go to Belgium and celebrate with my sisters and relatives there. With them, we connect via the internet to my mom and brother with his family in the U.S. and to my dad and our youngest brother in the Philippines. Can you imagine how chaotic it is really? Talk about what's new, what's old, who has had baby's, who got married, who got ditched and so on will be compressed on this one video conference. For yes, these are like the some of the news that we would get from the visits to our relatives during the holidays, specifically starting after the All Soul's Day celebration, until Christmas. In fairness, welcoming the New year together with my second family, (my in-laws) is the bonus that I am forever grateful.

Happy Holidays everybody. I hope you will be spending a wonderful and happy Christmas with your family and love ones. Let us embrace the coming of another year with full of love and good tidings!!!
Gifts and surprises
by missP on Sun Dec 17, 2006 10:38 pm
I love gifts. I can't wait long enough to open them. I get so excited upon seeing them that when I was just a kid, I oftentimes got in trouble for peaking into somebody else's gift or un-wrapping mine when I was not supposed to yet.

Hubby knows this. At least he is aware of this attitude of mine. So, when he has something gift wrapped for me, he has to hide them somewhere else like in the basement or something. Once, he hid my birthday gift behind the exercise machine... but it so happened that I wanted to exercise that week, so i found out about his secret...hehe. I know. I can ruin the fun. I tried anyway not to let him know that I knew already what was in store for me. He must have found out anyway, because the next times he buys me a present in advance, he doesn't wrap it anymore until a few minutes before he would give it to me. But it can still get complicated trying to wrap something hurriedly because i would definitely start noticing that he disappeared all of a sudden. So there, the surprise would then be blown away.

This year, he tried it first with my flat screen monitor for my comp. I swear, I didn't even notice that there was something for me in the pantry. It was not wrapped nicely nor was it hidden in the innermost part of the tiny room. It was just sitting there, behind the packs of lemonade and tetra packed tea. Still, I didn't notice it. I was up late on the eve of my birthday. I watched some Tagalog films till very late that night. Just about a few minutes before midnight, hubby woke up. I could hear him going to the toilet and then to the bathroom. I was still so busy engrossed in the film "Sukob" with Kris Aquino that I didn't even get up to see what hubby was up to. A few minutes afterwards, he peaked at me and said he was going back to bed. I just nodded to let him know I heard.

When I went back into the computer room half an hour later to turn off the computers, there I saw right in front of me is my brand new Acer flat screen monitor. I didn't have a single clue about it. What hubby did was, he went to the pantry, took the flat screen monitor and set it up in the computer room. With a rose in front of it and a note greeting me happy birthday, the new screen gleamed right there in the middle of my comp table. That was the first time he really surprised me... is that so sad after 7 years of marriage?

The next surprise that came to me was just last week. I knew about the camera. It was a promise so it did not come quiet as a surprise. Yet, it still didn't escape my fast fingers. The minute I entered the living room and noticed a new box, I knew it was my Kodak Easyshare Dual Lens V570. I know, I am quiet an undisciplined brat you would think, hehehe. I unpacked it and started clicking away. I am just a novice at taking pictures so the first ones are not really very good. But, hey, I am learning everyday.


Trivia: Were the pictures taken at sunrise or sunset?


The biggest surprise is my Logitech Pro 5000. It actually came with the camera package, but this was something I did not expect since I have my old useful Logitech Quickcam Express already. As it turned out, hubby thought I would be able to use this new webcam better. It has better photo quality and definitely the best audio system to boot with it. You see, I have been spending sometime in karaoke chat rooms as I mentioned in my previous entry. I also sang a few, much to the other chatters dismay, hahaha. No, I am not making a career out of chatting yet… but, let’s just say I frequently visit the chat rooms nowadays. So if you happen to be visiting any tagalog rooms in Paltalk, I hope to see you there, too. Or even hear you sing there too. Common' let's sing our lungs out this Christmas!

The mug is a favorite of mine. I don't have a real live pet cat that purrs but this one accompanies me every single day. I do the purring anyway, each time i have a cup of my favorite Redbush Honey-Vanilla flavored tea Wink