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Making new friends. . .

I miss the times when I had friends I could really depend on, around me. Whenever I needed somebody to talk to, aside from my sisters, I would just call one of my six girlfriends or meet with any or all of them and just pour my heart out to them completely. I didn't have to worry about spilling any secrets that I have, simply because I trusted them. It has been more 7 years since I have had that kind of friendship around me. Of course I still communicate with most of my old bestfriends, but it is not the same as before. Pag tumawag ang isa, we all literally scramble over to meet and be with the one in need. Mas masaya din kami whenever we meet without having to tackle or solve a problem, which was more often. Ngayon kasi, hindi na puwede yung style namin dati. We have all gone our separate ways, having migrated to different countries around the world. Hindi naman pwedeng lumipad agad just because one is crying over a breaking relationship. Hindi naman kasi kami rich. But we talk on the phone. Kaya ang phone bills grabe! Although, we all wish we could do it.

When I first came to Germany, my second project was to meet some Filipinas to befriend. The first was to learn the German language. After two months of being here, I finally met some Filipinas. I used to hang out with them almost everyday. Hoping to eventually make a "real" bond with them. We went bowling, dancing, karaoke (of course!), and travelled once or twice outside of Frankfurt. But I never felt that special "bonding" that I was looking for. I felt lost in their crowd. Although they tried to include me in their activities and organizations, I never really felt that I was more than welcome to be a "friend". I just felt "used" in the end. Luckily, I found a job immediately after I got my Europaeisches Sprachenzertifikat im Fach "Deutsch". I became engrossed in the job that i didn't feel guilty of slowly distancing myself from them. But I still have communication with some of them. I still meet one or two of them almost every other week.

I do have a friend (Saint's mom) whom I call and spend time with here in Germany. We met sometime in 2002 when she first came to Germany. But because we have different situations now, she being a mom and me being a working girl (as if?!), medyo we don't meet as often anymore as we used to do before she had a child and before I started working. We talk as often as we can though. And I go to visit her every now and then.

I just talked to Saint's mom a few minutes ago. It seems like I will see her again even if only for a short time, next week. She made arrangements to meet some nice people for a quick chat and she wanted me to meet them as well.

The time will be short, but I think it will be fun!